And the beat goes on…..

I’ve been struggling with some disappointment and been feeling a bit discouraged lately. However, I have been getting out and exercising. Matt and I have been waiting till the kids go to bed then running away, literally. Sunday night was my first real run in a long time. The ankle injury slowed me down a lot more than I thought and hoped it would. All in all I still got back at it a lot sooner than my doctor thought I would and probably would have wanted me too. I’ve been taking Max out lately and though running with him is a hazard to your health, I’m trying to work with him on it. I feel better having my dog with me when I’m running at the track at night and it is dark.

The disappointment is that I wanted to run a 5k the end of October and was going to sign up for it as some added encouragement for myself. But in reality with the 2 month slow down from being out of town and then hurting myself I’m just not going to be ready for it (mostly the hurting myself part). And here’s is the discouragement. I’ve been a bit down on myself lately and have gotten the “why bothers”. But as I came to realize the other night while I was out running, this isn’t going to be something that happens for me overnight, or even over a month. It is a work in progress and it will take time. I just have to decide if it is worth it to me or not. Of course exercise and the goal of losing weight is worth it, so I’m sticking with it. Unfortunately I’m an impatient person and like to see results quickly and frequently. So I’m sure I’m going to go thru more bouts of discouragement, but I’m also sure I’ll pull out of it and keep going.

I don’t really see any changes in my body, but I haven’t really been trying hard lately either (at least I’m being honest).

So I probably won’t update my blog more than once a week, with the kids and everything else time is precious (I’m blogging at work right now J)

So that is it for now and I’ll talk to you soon!