I think I can

So I'm having a hard time with motivation, and that seems to always happen when my Dad talks to me about what I'm doing. So I know I mentioned that a few years ago my parents sent me to a hypnotherapist for weight loss. Well it was my Dad who had the talk with me about it, at my birthday dinner, right before we ordered desert. Nothing like being told you are so fat that he is afraid you are going to have a heart attack on your birthday, but really is there ever a good time for that? So anyways... that didnt work, I hated driving to Beaverton every week to sit in a recliner with flashing lights and soft music listening to someone tell me that I dont want to eat or drink anything and that I want to exercise till I collapse. like I said, it didnt work.

So on to this time..... We are at my parents for Mothers day/ Matt's birthday and my dad tells me that I'm way to heavy to try running without causing serious damage and yes that's right crippling myself. And this guy wants to be a life coach, I shutter to think about his potential clients.

So I'm a little depressed and feeling pretty unmotivated about anything right now.... and to top it off my lower back is acting up so that is making me feel defeated as well.

So here is my solution.... I'm going to put the couch to 5k on hold for now and focus on loosing weight and exercise that isnt killing my shins. I do plan on picking it back up when I reach the 50 pound loss mark..... I'm slowly making my way to it and I'm not going to let anything my father says or anyone else for that matter discourage me. As long as I'm making progress and am happy with the results then that is what matters.

so weigh in this morning is 267, not a loss and not a gain so after what I ate this weekend I'll take it.

So, bye for now..... see you soon