14 pounds and counting.... and a new work out

So, today is Friday, it is BEAUTIFUL out side, and I'm in a fabulous mood! Here's why.....

I weighed in this morning, I've lost another pound! so that is a total of 14 pounds now. AND I'm finally starting to notice some differences! That is the exciting part, besides seeing the number drop. The biggest difference is that I'm feeling great, I have more energy, positive attitude, I'm motivated, and excited. I haven't felt this good in a VERY long time, I'm talking 10+ years.

I've changed my work out and I have to say it is working great, I'm feeling good afterwards and I look forward to doing it. So here is what I'm doing.... I have a nice treadmill (courtesy of my parents whims) and it does all sorts of things, including a power incline. So I alternate between 2.3 mph at an incline of 5 and 3mph at an incline of 10 (that's the max) 1/8 mile each I do this for 30 minutes. Another cool thing about this treadmill is that it has a section that tells you if what you are doing is warm up/cool down, fat burn, endurance, or psychotic ;) Each have 2 levels. So with the low end of my work out I have 3 lights lit up, (1st level of fat burn) and with the high end of my work out I have 6 lights lit up (that is the 2nd level of endurance). I'm feeling the burn in my thighs now too. This also keeps my heart rate up and works up a good sweat. My shin splints aren't killing me, though they still make an appearance. I'm planing on doing this in 1 week stages.... I'm going to increase 10/3 until I'm doing the whole 30 minutes at it then I'm going to increase my speed and so on.

On to other things.... I found out this week how important good support really is. I had a run in with some doubt and hurt feelings caused by something my father said to me last weekend. Ive been struggling with that up until yesterday when I checked in with my support buddy. I have to tell you she is really the best support I could get, we have more and more in common with our struggles and our childhood every time we talk about things. I came to realize that MOST of my issues do come from my parents and my grandparents. I have been told from such a young age that I was fat, so why change? Everyone thought I was a lost cause, so why try? I spent my child hood watching my mom do the roller coaster thing and all the fad's. Never really setting a good example for my sister and I about eating right and exercising and sticking with it. Then constantly being dragged into diets and weight loss clinics when I was young, and then my favorite and you wouldn't believe how bitter I still am about this one.... the being told on a regular base that if I would just loose 20 pounds then I would be pretty and then boys would like me. I really need to let that one go, but it is hard.

As my friend told me yesterday, it is time to prove them wrong. I am worth it, I am not a lost cause, I am going to do this, I deserve to be healthy and happy.

So I've decided (and I still have to tell SS about this :)) that once I meet my goal, because I know she will be at her's way before I'm at mine, we are going to go shopping together. We are going to get the cute and sexy black dress, then our men are going to take us out. And we are going to celebrate and have a great night because we can do this and we are worth it.

Talk to you soon!