over a year?

So I realized today that I have been doing this blog for just over a year now. I also realized that I'm not any further than I was a year ago. Well I guess that isn’t exactly true, I did do my first 5k in March but other than that I really haven’t progressed at all. I'm really disappointed in myself, if I would have stuck with it (also not have hurt my ankle in July, that was a HUGE setback) I would probably be close to where I want to be. So here is the deal.... Time seems to slip away from me and I'm constantly tired with the kids and running the house and all, so I'm going to start small. I'm going to make myself the promise that I will exercise at a minimum of once a week for a month, I will try for more but with the minimum of once a week I should be able to handle that. then I'll bump it up to twice a week for a month and so on. I wish I could be OCD about it and focus on it really strong, but the fact is that I'm lazy and by the time I pick up kids and rush home, get dinner done and everything else I'm really tired. I know I know I need to just do it, but it is hard to have the motivation when I rather crawl into bed and read. So Baby steps it is!

tonight is the night

Ok so I've had a hard time finding time to get back at it. I've been feeling pretty stressed lately with the fact that I've been subpoenaed to testify on behalf of the kids next week. just the mear thought of it puts my stomach in knots, even now it is happening. And with that pretty much being on my mind all the time I've had a hard time focusing on anything else. So what better time to work out some stress than tonight. The kids have their visit tonight so I'm going to take that opportunity to get on the treadmill without any interruptions. So my plan is after I get the kids fed and off to their visit I'm going to spend some QT with the treadmill. Fingers crossed that I stick with my plan!

Back on the wagon?

Ok, so I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I've never been one for new year's res. because I have always thought that if you want to make a change then just make it. Why do you have to wait for the new year? And what happens when you don't stick with it? So, I'm not going to make one, but I am going to make myself a deal. I have been so supper stressed lately with all that has been going on in my life with the kids and such that I really feel that I deserve a weekend of fun AWAY from home every now and then. So hear is my deal, I want to drop some weight, I'm going to say 50 pounds by August..... shouldn't be too bad right? 8 months to lose 50 pounds, that is only 6 1/4 pounds a month. I'm going to make the deal with myself that if I can reduce the processed food, wheat products, and sugar and increase the exercise and lose the 6 1/4 pounds a month then I'm going to treat myself to a few trips...... without my house hold. So I think I would like to fly to Texas in February to visit my cousin, April I would like to fly to California to visit family for the weekend and maybe I'll throw in a few more local don't have to get on a plain trips. It will be my reward so to speak. So starting tonight I'm back to the treadmill, I have to start all over but I can do it. I owe it to myself and want to do it for myself. I'm also going to start blogging again, just because I need to see it.

So stay tuned.......

not gone yet

Ok, so I haven't completely given up. I'm kind of doing my own thing. I've been sticking to the treadmill and have been doing a combo or jogging/walking and using the incline on both. So far it has been great. I'm not as regular with it as I would like to be but I would say I'm doing 3 times a week and that is way better than nothing. So slowly but surely I'm making a comeback.

More later :)

To be continued………..

Well, there you have it. I’ve lost my umph, my support isn’t working anymore, I’m hovering at the same weight, my shin splints aren’t getting any better, and I just don’t care anymore. I’m not saying I’ve thrown in the towel and have given up, but I’ve lost my motivation. To be continued……….. Maybe.

Week 3 day 1 of c25k

So Thursday night I started week 3 day 1 of c25k. It was rough, I only got thru a little more than half of it but there were some outside factors why I decided to cut it short. First of all I went alone down to the school track with Max at nearly 9pm. it was completely dark and quiet, so with my ipod plugged into one ear off I went. My dog Max was my faithful running companion and he was totally freaking me out! every 5 or so feet he would look behind him like someone was following us, he was jumpy (and is NEVER like this) and was freaking himself out and in turn freaked me out, so 3/4 mile into it I decided to just can it and head home try again another day. It was a rough run for me anyways so I gave up easily. However as soon as I decided to leave the track my nose started bleeding, and I had already had a good nose bleed earlier that day. Lucky for me I was wearing a tank top under my shirt. I balanced Max and whipped off my shirt to cover my bleeding face. Made it home covered and I do mean covered in blood. So that just topped off my sucky run. I have been having a rough time with my allergies lately and that has been affecting my running. But tonight I'm going to redo day 1 of week 3 and give it a better go on the treadmill. I have found I do better on it then running outside, it has a little more give in my strides so impact isn't as rough on my joints and i find I can go a little farther that way. My shin splints are still KILLING me, I know for a fact that it they weren't bothering me I could totally go farther and rock at this. I feel they are really slowing me down. I've tried tiger balm, icy hot, a running ban that is charges with negative ions (whatever that means) and supper stretching. The only thing that helps a little is if I really take my time stretching and do a good job of it. However I find I forget sometimes because I'm so focused on getting going.

Also on the weight side of things. I seem to be hovering at the same weight right now, not up nor down from what it has been for the past month. So I guess matainign is good, but I know I need to kick it up a little. But on my off nights from running i have been going for good walks or finding something else to do. I've been a little stressed latley with a change to my life, looks like the kids are going to be staying. And work has been really stressful for me latley. But all in all I'm feeling really good and have been getting my energy level back up and staying positive.

So I think that is all for now. Talk to you soon.

week 2 day 1 of couch to 5k

So back on one of my previous attempts at this I made it to week 2 day 1 and I struggled with it, that was also as far as I have gotten with doing the c25k. So today was a milestone, small to some but one to me. Not only did I get over the mental hump that I cant move on from my comfort zone of week one I did it without struggling. I stretched really good before I did it and though my shin splints were better I still had some trouble with them. But nothing I couldn't work thru. I'm feeling really good about my progress and I'm excited about all my small milestones. oh, did I mention I'm officially down 30 pounds? I'm seeing some small differences in my body, things like my biceps are getting more toned and so are my thighs. I can swear my calves look bigger but Matt thinks I'm paranoid about it. Over all I'm feeling good and happy with my progress.

Anyways, just a small update.

talk to you soon